Dear DeAnna...

I really wanted to write an uplifting post after the disgrace that was yesterday's, but you, my dear, have not made that possible.

First of all, I've loved you all along. I have made no secret of this. You're a Southern Belle and I was impressed with you from the start. You're polished and pretty and REAL. I was rooting for you the entire time.



When you gave Jeremy the first rose, that was it for me. I was in love.

Apparently, you didn't feel the same.

However, he was my favorite within a matter of moments. Handsome, in real estate, from Dallas? I'm smitten. Every week I held my breath during the rose ceremony and every week I let it out when you called his name. You gave him the first rose; shouldn't he get the last as well?

In my opinion, you made some more-than-questionable decisions along the way. Keeping "Twilley" around for that long? Are you kidding? I refuse to take that out of quotes. And then there's Graham - the emotionally unattached iceberg. His life is one big fat enigma to me. I want to know what team he is a 'pro-basketball player' for. Really. Because word on the street in good ole NYC is that girls are apparently flocking to the few bars that he part owns here.

Last night, I had to choose between taking care of purchasing my new computer or running home to catch The Bachelorette season finale.

I made the wrong choice.

I blame myself. I should have known. When you chose Jesse last week instead of Jeremy (because that is how I viewed it and now that is how I will ALWAYS view it) I was absolutely beside myself. You sent home the golden boy. The Southern Gentleman who promised you the world and WOULD HAVE GIVEN IT TO YOU. How could you not be in love with this man? He is a class act and any woman who gets him is a lucky duck.

My belief that you would choose Jason was shaken as soon as you stepped up to that podium. When you said you were sending home someone who you would be 'perfect' with, I just had a feeling. I felt silly for having been so certain when the week before you completely shocked me. Should have known! Poor Jason. To be away from his son for that long and to come home with nothing. I feel for you, pal. That was rough to watch. You are a stand-up guy.

Gotta love Tacori, the token ABC jeweler. I guess you know by now that the diamond Jason chose for you was a classier cut and an all-around better ring? Too late!

Special thanks to BlackBerry messenger. While we may not always get along, because of you AEG and I were able to be in constant contact during the entire excruciating three hours.

Jason began to get down on one knee and you said, "No, I can't." I do believe that I stopped breathing for ten seconds. All I could BBM to AEG was, "NO. NO." What else was there to say? Unless you were picking Jeremy after all in some sort of a surprise twist, this was NOT okay.

I cried. AEG cried. You hear that? AEG. That's a big deal. She's not like two tissues TAG over here who can't hold it together during Moon River. It's actually saying something that she shed tears over this trainwreck. We were upset! MAD, even! And rightfully so.



Look, I will level with you. You've had your heart broken. I've had my heart broken. I've been there; I know what it's like to not want to get out of bed, to put your head on your steering wheel and cry at every stoplight. All I know is that after everything I've been through, I want a sure thing. Security. Not some snowboarding dude who wears a plaid shirt and sneakers to meet my family and whose vocabulary hasn't advanced since 1982.

This is where you lose me.



I'm not going to stop liking you because of the choice you made. I REALLY do hope you are happy. And if I see a People magazine article five years down the road that says it's over, I'm going to be really, really disappointed.



You know, I would have bet money at the beginning of the season that this guy didn't stand a chance. Boy, am I glad I saved a pretty penny.

Apple store, I'm coming to you baby.

Jeremy or Jason for the next Bachelor,

TAG

P.S. Readers, please check Adventures in Argyle for AEG's letter to Jason!