I woke up this morning and thought to myself, "What do you want to do today, Teddi?" And I did just that. I laid in bed with a bowl of Special K and watched Curb Your Enthusiasm episodes on demand, laughing loudly. I went to Starbucks for an iced vanilla latte and got a pedicure. It was heavenly.
I pondered mid-adventure how selfishly I live my life. I try to do good... I volunteer for my sorority, plan to be active on my Junior League committee, give money to good causes, and make small random acts of kindness part of my daily routine. But I'd be remiss if I didn't admit that the first thing I think of when I wake up in the morning is myself. What's going to make me happy? What's going to get me through today? In large part I am a people pleaser. I always want to make sure that everyone around me is comfortable and happy, but I certainly haven't forgotten about myself. I'm a Teddi pleaser too.
I know that if the time ever comes that I meet someone, I can no longer be this selfish. Everything changes. And as wonderful as this is, I've been on the other side of the fence and know that it's pretty fantastic as well.
It occurred to me sitting in that pedicure chair, tan legs hanging off the edge and toes wiggling in the water how God damned fortunate I am. I lead a very lucky life and I don't want to waste another minute.
So much is happening and I can't predict the future. All I can do is put my faith in fate. And wait - but have a good time doing it.