I always make a point of saying out loud how good my life is. Because it is. I'm blessed beyond measure and I don't want to take any of it for granted. Sometimes I feel the need to remind everyone else and sometimes I need to remind myself.
But I'd be lying if I didn't say the past few months were a bit tough. Lots of heartbreak and lots of questions. I still consider myself incredibly fortunate and exceptionally happy, but sometimes I feel as though I am constantly searching for something and I'm not sure what. I think it's balance.
I've admittedly never been great about prioritizing my time well and lately this is more and more evident. I overcommit myself and I still don't feel like I'm accomplishing enough. I over schedule and I still don't feel like I'm doing enough. I had such a great weekend but I wanted so badly to relax and I did the exact opposite.
I've never been one of those people who can just get into bed and fall asleep. I always say I'm the Energizer Bunny... I keep going and going and I don't require a whole lot of downtime. But lately it's all I crave because I can't understand how I'll ever truly be successful if I can't figure out how to juggle it all. What's the answer? Cut something out? More multitasking? How will I ever really complete my book or finish the laundry or fall head over heels if I can't figure out how to get the rest done?
You will be fine, you take excellent care of your health with soul cycle.
ReplyDeleteIf your body is telling you to slow down, its for a reason, listen to it.
Try to wind down at least two hours before bed, read quietly or just relax on the couch with a funny tv show.
This is why I love you...because I do the exact same thing (is that essentially me saying that I love myself?) :) :) I guess we'll just figure it out as we take it day by day! Love you!
ReplyDeleteCan I ask you something, what exactly is it you do? Are you a writer, writing a book? I know so many people who are not 9-5 er's who find time management to be so hard. When is work time and when is personal time? If you are spending your time working on yourself, isn't that same time helping you work better? It is questions I hear all the time.
ReplyDeleteBest of luck, hope you find balance and happiness in everything you do.
Hope you're doing well. Best of luck with the book, too.
ReplyDeleteI don't like to sleep or go to bed, either. It's almost like a phobia; I think I'm afraid to "give up" on the day, or that I might miss something? Weird, right?
ReplyDeleteWell, like Wendy said, be sure and just listen to your body and be gentle with it when it really needs it. You have too much to give and do and create, and we don't want you to burn out! Hugs! :-)