But then I reminded myself that I may regret skipping class, but I never regret going. And with that, I slipped into my Lulu, grabbed my mat bag, and thanked goodness that the rain had let up as I power walked to the studio.
All through class I thought to myself, "I'm so glad I came". And then towards the end, the instructor told us that we should strive for balance on the mat and try to let that balance permeate into life outside of the studio.
I've been struggling a whole lot with balance lately. I just can't seem to get it right. I'm not sleeping nearly enough, and I feel really pudgy and stagnant. I need to workout more. I need to write more. I need to figure out how to organize my day so that I'm not constantly feeling like there isn't enough time for anything. I need to stop making excuses to skip yoga because I'm too stressed out. HELLO?! That's what yoga is for! To de-stress.
I'm thinking back to my September goals and I'm cringing. Read two books? I haven't even finished one. Lululemon photo challenge? I gave up somewhere around Day 5. And I am mad at myself because I can't seem to stick to these seemingly small and simple tasks for one reason or another. Maybe I need to give myself a break. I spent the weekend fighting a bad cold and just haven't felt 100% recently.
I think for now all I can do is stay on top of my to do list, take lots of deep breaths, and keep going to yoga. I think the teacher is right. The practice makes me so aware of my self, my being, and my body. My down dog may be far from perfect, but I think the whole point is about accepting my imperfections.
I'm working on it.
A) love your blog! So fun, insightful, honest and motivating! B) I recently learned the hard way that every now and then, we just need to press pause on life in order to find our balance. It's ok not to finish that to-do list even for those of us who love making lists (guilty as charged!) I'm trying to learn to enjoy life regardless of if I can cross something off my to-do list or not!!
ReplyDeleteTeddi-- I love that you're always keepin' it real. We ALL know how it feels when you get that "I'm not achieving anything" itch (which is usually untrue anyway). As a wise lady once said to me, you can juggle lots of balls, you just need to know which ones are glass and which ones are rubber so you don't let the wrong ones drop. Cherish those rubber balls!
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Kim
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I love your comment about how you might regret not going, but you don't ever regret going. That's such a good way of thinking and may work for motivation for me! I hear you on the rain. I HATE rain...hate, hate, hate...my husband knows to stay away from me when it's raining. There is nothing worse than having to go somewhere and feeling all soggy. Perhaps I should move to Arizona instead of cold, wet Cleveland!
ReplyDeleteIt just so happens that september is national yoga month, says bethenny :) http://www.bethenny.com/post/bethenny-frankel-celebrating-national-yoga-month-september-2012
ReplyDeleteGirlfriend, preach it! Balance is like a unicorn. I've been told it's out there, but have never and probably will never truly fnd it. But in the mean time it's importatnt to enjoy the weird ride.
ReplyDeleteGreat post!! it is so true that finding balance in our lives is so hard to do, work, school social life, excercise regimen, the list is endless.
ReplyDeleteWomen are so much more capable of it, we can multitask, men just are not wired that way. #girlpower#
So glad that you went to yoga and felt rewarded by the experience.
I need to do yoga, especially now that spinning is out of the question for the time being :(
Namaste!!
Dear Teddi,
ReplyDeleteReading your blog often if not always surprises me. Sometimes I feel that we are two entirely different people and that your problems and dramas are so incomprehensible to me, but then you write things like this and it gets to me and reminds me why I follow your blog and always ALWAYS check yours first in my Google Reader. Thank you for being you and sharing it with the world.
You look amazing! Keep up the good work!
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